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Thats it then. nothing to do but leave the computer here until in the morning. pat is getting her internet turned off because she doesnt have her own computer. and i think shes tired of me coming over. and cant blame her there. so until i get the internet back. will be awhile before i come back this way. smiles sadly have to get a job first.



to all those. love you and will miss you all so much. wont be able to spend christmas and new years here with you all like last year.



much loves and hugs



MERRY CHRISTMAS

started reading the next book in the tamuli series by David Eddings. actually the Diamond Throne series and the Tamuli is one of my favorites, next to Terry Goodkind. I read Firechain by him but didn't get the next book in the series and am dying to. sometimes i like to read them over again just to escape. and its a perfect series to read on cold winter nights in bed.





Not much else to do. smiles no phone, cable or dvd. but dammit i still have my stereo and blast Black Sabbath on sundays.( its a tradition to drive my neighbors nuts)



ah doesn't take much to amuse me...lol

sitting here looking out the window, watching it snow. snow showers for the day. been conversing here and at myspace. found an old friend that i hadnt seen in years. thats nice when that happens. Im over at pats and is taking care of her for the day. shes not been feeling well so i vacuumed her floor and made her bed and have her settled on the couch drinking coffee and watching old movies. the medicine the doctor gave her makes her sleepy and i dont want her burning down the apartment. so while shes watching tv. im working on the computer.



I hope to have my computer home soon

not only did pat have a nasty time of it. My other neighbor Nancy's blood sugar shot up to where it wasnt registering on her meter. so she gave her self too much of fast acting insulin which brought it down to sixty. so i ran from pats over to nancys and fixed her something to eat.



after all that came home and took a bath and read for a bit before turning in. woke up around one and couldnt get back to sleep. my phone has been shut off so its really quiet at my place.

i moved the tree to in front of the patio so i can see the snow behind the tree. looks very festive. but dont see any reason why i should celebrate.



no one to share the holidays with and yes i have my family but not the same as curling up and snuggling with someone on the couch, drinking hot chochlate and watching it snow.



maybe next year lol

have i ever mentioned i hate the cold? cleaning apartment buildings isnt the warmest thing to do. I woke up this morning around four and couldnt get back to sleep.



my mother bought the check so i could pay my rent and that was big relief. Called about the job and they hadnt heard anything back from the company. so i give them a call back monday.



so hopefully i get this and i can get back on track!

got a line on a job today. making ten an hour at a silkscreen place making tshirts. its funny, people talk about things coming full circle. thats the first job i ever got out of high school. where i started out at. Not sure if i got the job but said for me to call back to see about an interview. im keeping my fingers crossed. the rest of my rent is due and i hate like hell to ask my mother for one more month.



I refuse to give up but seeing there maybe no more option that to move in with my mother. but several drawbacks. one i cant take my cats. and what possessions i do have will most likely have to get rid of. all i will be able to take with me is my clothes, computer and curio cabinet. there really is no place for me there. no room but she says they can find a place for me. which i highly doubt it.



something good has to happen to me sooner or later. so im stressing big time. dont remember a time where ive not been stress. say a prayer for me and light a candle. i need all the help i cant get!

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LadyChordewa
00:54 Dec 05 2008

All I can do is *hugs*

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